Do you know?

Being a girl is difficult? Did you know that girls like to think stuffs that are not actually important to herself? Meaning that, girls like to make her life miserable and complicated? That will end up hurting herself. I don't know about other girls out there. I don't really give a shit. My mom told me this, men are born to have strong physicalities, while women are born to have a great heart as in a strong heart. I'm not talking about pumping your blood to all part of the bodies. Its about how women are strong enough to face problems. I don't know, if you ever realize about it?

Whether you care or not, actually I'm talking about myself now. I'm not saying that I'm actually a guy who acted as a girl and I found it difficult. But, I do have a problem in facing my own feelings. I helped my friends a lot in facing their problems, and guess what? It really worked. But, me? I'm confused. I've seen my guy friends, they're like stick to their decision and maintaining it. In Malay, they called, "tetap pendirian". I don't know what's that in English. Lame me. And why am I so stubborn to really glued to my own decision.

For example, I want to be as a heartless girl, who doesn't even care if she's single, mentally abused, dressed up preppy-ly, being rejected, and hell yeah, many more. But, instead, I'm pretending to be like one. No, no not pretending. I'm trying damn hard and I don't know if its really work.
Hey, I do love being single, that's an exception. But, after I've been mentally abused, I cried a lot. After I dressed up preppy-ly, I'm afraid of people talking behind my back. I used being rejected, and I think I really don't care about it, but I actually embarrassed like heck.
That's why I told you, being a girl is difficult. You tend to think things that not important and lead you to miserable-ness. Pff, what in the world are not difficult anyway?

P/S: you'll find many grammar error, because i still sucks in grammar. you'll find my sentences are like primary one student, because my vocabulary still yucks. and maybe you don't understand the message in this hell long essay or post, because i'm writing in nani's language. nani hates reading. so, the sentences are all direct translation from malay. lame.

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