Sunday, October 23, 2011

Stop and come on.

Stop making fool outta yourself.
Stop hoping things that are impossible.
Come on, please understand.

Stop doing things that I don't think, F prefer. 
Stop exaggerating.
Come on, but that's just you.

Oh, come on! Why, there will always thing that making me stress and let the anger filled me? Am I thinking too much?


I ridiculously, felt like crying, when you're down. Why? I don't know. Worriness, I reckoned. 


Thursday, October 20, 2011

So true!

One of my classmate, posted this, "Kalau kau benci seorang, nanti berganda-ganda yang akan benci kau". I think it's fucking true. I'm experiencing one 'case'.

Z hated many people. Then suddenly, Z actually have tonnes of secret and it was revealed slowly. One by one. Surprises, after surprises. And me, myself almost annoyed with Z, because of Z's attitude. Meaning that, I am now, included in the 'berganda-ganda yang akan benci kau' category. Did you realize, of how 'scary' a statement can be?

So honey, my advice, stop pretending to be someone that you're not. Stop having something that you're not afford to own. Stop being someone else, because I want to know the real you. No matter how awful and horrible you are, just be yourself, and I'll figure a way to accept it. 


Monday, October 17, 2011


"I wanna runaway."

OH, hey, good food reaally induced happy hormone eh? No matter how moody you are, once you got great foods, your happy hormone just zoomed up. And hey, staying in campus, I ate just for the sake of balanced diet, and energy, protein, yak...yak....yak... None delicious foods. You want delicious food, you have to wait for 68 hours to get the food. Like, what the heck. And this is why, I hate to have dinner. I rather eat 6 buns (I packet) for dinner, than waiting for not-so-delicious-food forever. Not worth it, though.

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

This is insane.

What insane? I'm busy. Even bees aren't as busy as me. As well as my friends. They're busy too. Our batch handle an event. Okay, fullstop. Freaking laazy to describe what kinda event it'll be. You know, my life without an event to handle is busy itself, with the laundry, the 'roomkeeping', the studies, the rests, the sleeps, the read here and that, the revisions, the homesicks and only God knows what else.
So, this October, I would like to present you, 'A Busy Life Of A Girl, Named Naniiii!'. So, imagine this, I don't even have time to lay down and take five, I don't have time to make a cup of coffee, I am away from God (I told you, this is insane!), but I do my daily prayers eh. Oh, Allah, come and gimme hidayahh! I wanttt!
I am so busy, I didn't take  good care of my health. So, basically, I have flu, cough, dizzy and what else, umm, oh slightly feverish. And today, as I busy stuffed some tissue inside my nostrils in order to absorb my mucus, duhh? Then suddenly I saw red absorption on the tissue. And I thought I was too harsh, my nostrils tore apart, yet, the blood came out from the nasal cavity. I don't know the mechanism of how this can happened, but this was my first time to have nose-bleeding. It's ridiculously fun. Instead of transparent fluid that usually come out from my nose, but this time it's blood! WHEEWWPP!
And hey, I just realize that I am a stubborn girl when it comes to clinic, pills, medication, skip class to visit doctor. Hmm, I wasn't stubborn. I just thought those 'procedures' are just too tedious for me. Aboot the medication, I forgot to take 'em :D
Peeps, wish me luck, for handling these thaang.


Friday, October 7, 2011


Fun facts about me.

1. She walks fast, especially when going to the class.
2. She chews so long, to just finish a mouthful of rice.
3. She can wear her hijab, without depending on the mirror.
4. She loves to ask random questions.
5. She easily gets excited in almost everything.

Number 10.

Still remember about this drawing? This one, I was inspired by the last day I went to bazar Ramadan. Hmph, nothing much to elaborate though. I've been busy, I left my pencil and sketchbook a long time ago. I mean, there's no free time to draw. Oh, I drew a dinasour and a girl on my question test paper this morning. I was so blur, I can't think of anything, thus I draw :D

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Shits and stress.

"Being a slow learner is the most burdened thing for her. Being insulted and hurted once, was enough for her to make a change in her life. Shits after shits, attacked her slowly. She doesn't want be a such troublesome to her love ones. Thus, she shall endure these with a lot of smile and laughs. Also, a lot of sacrifisaction. She has to prepare mentally that among these shits, one may fall into a black hole. And she may cries her heart out and, onlyGodknows, random stuffs she might do in future. Sighs accompanied her recently, almost all the time."

Well, stress are normal right? For students. And Allah, won't give such stress and burden that we can't cope right? There will always hikmah behind these 'awesome'-typpa-stress. Failure, can happen. I mean, you didn't expect you'll succeed in everything you do, right? What are you, God or something? No one's perfect, bear that in mind. Some say, sighing wasn't good. Wonder why? Because it was as if, you didn't or can't accept the qada' and qadar, or easily said, you didn't accept your fate that Allah had chose for you. Which is, not good. Well, I myself, sighed a lot. I mean, I can't help it. It was like, reflex action. I have to change. Oh, honey, I said that a lot, but change is hard.