Wednesday, June 19, 2013

note to myself

what i realize,
in dentistry or being a dental student,
you can't be slow.
you can't work slow.
you can't think slow.
you can't walk slow.

you have to decide fast.
you have to answer fast.
you have to think fast.
you have to walk fast.

or else,
you are abnormal
and annoying

so basically,
you must always have knowledge.
be confident even if you're wrong.
or if you don't know,
admit that you didn't know.
be brave.

act fast.
DO NOT hesitate, then give smile.
the lecturers got annoyed
so easily if you're doing that.

so, a little tips here.
if you think you are slow,
put efforts to improve.
look at others and learn.
try and learn to take risks.
take harsh comments positively,
then work it out to improve.
and think a little,
for how long i'll be 'this' slow?

because we deal with patients.
other human beings.
though we didn't deal with
brains, intestines, heart or lungs,
we deal with mouth and teeth.
first impression of people of you.

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

you were damn happy without me being there as usual.
it amazes me.

just, wow.

Monday, June 10, 2013

kan aku dah kata.
susah clinical partner dengan boyfriend orang.

bukan aku hadap sangat pun.
last resort dah tu.

susah bila campur-adukkan professional life dengan social life.
sikit-sikit nak jealous.
kejadah nya.

Friday, June 7, 2013

nak complain a lil.

denture tak siap. tapi ada progression. alhamdulillah.

besok (sabtu) ada kelas ganti cuti undi haritu. kot.
besok (sabtu) ada test periodontics.
saya tak study satu haprak lagi.
besok (sabtu) ada 2 clinics.
tapi both patient partner saya. alhamdulillah.

lusa (ahad) ada kelas.
tak tau lah ganti atau kelas tambahan.
lusa (ahad) ada anaabu launching her new shop.
got invitation, nak pegi, tapi ada kelas.
lusa (ahad) supposedly the only day to rest.
tapi ada kelas.
so, no rest.
because the day after ahad, is isnin.
which is start a new week.
so, no rest.

projek disko baldi dreams.
earlybird tickets until 7th June.
saya busy hari ni (7th June).
walaupun jumaat.
dari 8am-9pm.
lecture-clinic-labwork-mandarin class-usrah.
bila balik, call pj live arts.
rupa-rupanya talian tu buka dari 12pm-7pm.
i was occupied.
so daripada boleh dapat tiket harga rm50/pair,
kena beli yang biasa punya. which is rm70/pair.
aku dah kopak gila babi.
tapi sebab projek disko baldi tu best,
i think i deserve a good laugh at the end of my last 3rd year week,
before i officially start my study week for professional exam 3.
iedil putra tu kira macam, catalyst.
yang buat aku bersemangat nak pergi.
(transport nak ke jaya one tu tak pikir lagi.

ipoh alternative.
masa aku dapat tau jek pasal event ni.
on 8th June.
terus aku consider boleh pergi balik hari.
dari shah alam.
despite the event,
i want to eat 2 bowls of lien chee keng yang sedap gila tu.
yang ada sea coconut dan 2 biji of telur puyuh tu.
plus ice dia blended.
instead of cubes.
despite the event,
aku nak pergi funny mountain yang famous dgn soya tu.

nampak tak?
yang aku tak sedar diri takde duit.
tapi nak have fun?

so, conclusion nya.
complain lah kau macam mana sekalipun,
kun faya kun.
usaha, pikir dan doa lah apa yang terbaik utk diri sendiri.

the story of the disbelievers.

"Indeed, Allah has cursed the disbelievers and prepared for them a Blaze (hell).

Abiding therein forever, they will not find a protector or a helper.

The Day (hereafter) their faces will be turned about in the Fire, they will say, "How we wish we had obeyed Allah and obeyed the Messenger."

And they will say, "Our Lord, indeed we obeyed our masters and our dignitaries, and they led us astray from the [right] way.

Our Lord, give them double the punishment and curse them with a great curse.""

Al-Quran 33: 64-68

So, Allah has stated what the future will be. He said, the disbelievers will turn to Him when they received the punishments. No one else can help them, not even their gods, except for Allah. They will wish that Allah will give them chances to turn back to Him, obey Him and His Messenger. They will also pray that Allah will forgive them. But Allah has said, they will be in hell forever. Like, there'll be no turning back. 

And that is why it is actually our responsibilities as Muslims to educate and promote Islam to those who don't know. 

"..... Lord said to the angels, "Indeed, I will make upon the earth a successive authority."........ Allah said, "Indeed, I know that which you do not know.""

Al-Quran 2:30

From what I understand from this verse is, Allah told the angels that He wants to create a khalif - leader of Muslim from humankind. And the angels were like, "They will causes corruption in the earth and shed blood, while we declare Your praise and sanctify You". Then Allah said, "I know what you don't know". Subhanallah. Indeed, Allah is The Great. 

Allah also said, 

"If We had sent down this Qur'an upon a mountain, you would have seen it humbled and coming apart from fear of Allah . And these examples We present to the people that perhaps they will give thought."

"Indeed, we offered the Trust to the heavens and the earth and the mountains, and they declined to bear it and feared it; but man [undertook to] bear it. Indeed, he was unjust and ignorant."

Al-Quran 59:21 and 33:72

"He was unjust and ignorant". Because humankind agreed to take it, yet they didn't fear it as much as the mountains did. 

"[It was] so that Allah may punish the hypocrite men and hypocrite women and the men and women who associate others with Him and that Allah may accept repentance from the believing men and believing women. And ever is Allah Forgiving and Merciful."

Al-Quran 33:73

So, reflect back to us. We're lucky because we're Muslim. Because at the end of the day, heavens will be our reward. But, what have we done to get the reward? 

Wait, suddenly I forgot what's the main purpose of the post. I can't get to the climax. Dang. 

Basically, we need to do daawah- missionary work/preach Islam, to others. Sikit pun takpe. At least we do something. At least, we have something to tell Allah at the Judgement day. I encountered a quote saying something like, "Walaupun pelacur sekalipun yang bagi nasihat, kalau ianya baik untuk kita, kita boleh terima". Like, even a prostitute gave some advice on life, if its good, then we can take it. Even it is from a prostitute. Got me?

Remember, ideally, we have to be a Muslim as a whole (eat, behave, clothes, speak etc etc). Not just by name.
Keep on repenting, as long as we live. Because Allah is The Forgiving. Keep on doing good deeds, as long as we got the chance. And don't brag about the good deeds that you've done. Because at the Judgement day, those good deeds will turned into ashes. 

By the way, the new principle of life that I am practicing now is, "Biar orang buat kita, jangan kita buat kat orang". Do not do revenge if somebody did bad things to us, instead pray for the best for them. Its hard, I know. But the efforts to against your emotions or nafs, are the one that counts. Purify your heart, try to be as optimistic as you can. Its hard, I know. 

I know, my post is very haywire. I have the points, but I can't draw the line and relate to each of it. But, I've tried my best. Reminding, is what I tried to do.