One thing I just knew about death are I don't like changes and replacement made because of their absence.
They just won't be the same, of course. It totally needs time to adapt with their absence, then i'll accept replacement.
Futur means lazy and escape from preaching islam. Today in a history after long long time we didn't do usrah, I became more futur and more futur.
And today, while hanging out with some new friends, the guys were smoking e-cigarrette. And I was curious and randomly asked them, for me to try. Surprisingly, they actually taught me how to smoke (but they 'forbid' me to inhale deeply), and I did. There were actually smoke coming out from my mouth. It was a pleasure because it smells so nice, I did it twice, until I came home and muhasabah back what I've done today. And I thought, what is wrong with me? What have I done? I am supposed to be a da'ie. To stop or advice people to stop smoking, but I have joined them instead? Which satan had successfully possessed me? They must be jumping up and down in joyfulness.
They said, futur is not good. But it'll becoming so so so bad, when you enjoy being futur. Like I enjoyed smoking that thing. If my dad knows about this, i'd be doomed.
But I am totally taubat doing that. I really shouldn't do that. I don't want to blame my naqibah for not doing usrah (for some time) because something came up. Because I believe its my fault, to not constantly putting efforts to maintain or increase my level of iman. Since the environment changed, its just so hard to returned back to normal.
And today, I am so sad and dissapointed for what i've done.
Assalamualaikum and harlow. My new semester started a week ago. Fyi, I don't stay at hostel anymore. We rented a house instead.
The location is right in front of my uni's back gate. We purposely chose there, so it'll be easy for us to go to class. Nearer, since we don't have any own transport. I am, basically walking to class everyday. It takes me about 20 minutes to walk at my pace. Idk, they said i walk fast :3 My ither housemates take a bus everyday. They take 45 minutes to arrive. With people congested in the bus and jams. I purposely choose to walk, because i want to exercise and get fit and have my own sweet time, monologueing.
Our house is a shophouse. Like a house on top of the shoplots. Is that really what they called? It situated right in front of giant. Only 1 minute walking distance. Lol. It is very near to kfc, pizza hut, mcdonald, subway, mamaks, optic shop, nasi ayam penyet, secret recipe, 7 eleven, speedmart, stationary shops, laundry shop, salon, and the list goes on.
Housemates, are all my classmates. We're close. But i am not so close with them. We're good. Not that i'm anti social, its just that i'm already used to not having roomates for 2 years, and hanging out with my non dental friends. So when i'm with them, i'm kinda bring my 'old' tradition together.
We did housewarming party though. We cooked spaghetti bolognese (not prego), fried fries, and made lychee agar-agar. Its just a small event, because we only invited girls, and most of them couldn't make it because they went back to hometown.
We used maxis home portafi for internet. 28gb for 8 persons. Idk whether its sufficient or not. Our house is congested, and thus unifi and maxis home fiber cannot support (i have no idea).
Yeah thats all. I'll share soon, any updates.
Choose baked/grilled, rather than fried.
Choose steamed/soup, rather than savoury.
Choose tosai/chapati, rather than paratha.
Choose raw vege, rather than cooked ones.
Request less sugar, rather than the conventional one.
Lessen the amount of white rice.
Choose wholemeal bread, rather than white bread.
Lessen caffeine intake.
Choose whole grain cereal, rather than high-sugar level cereal.
Choose yoghurt drink, rather than normal fresh milk.
Or rather, drink a hell lot of plenty many many plain water.
I am trying to eat as healthy as I can. As less fats and oils as I can. Eat a lot of ulams as I can, a lot of high fibre as I can.
Come on, nani! You can do this!
Towards flawless skin!
Kan dah kantoi.
Because I feel recently my skin full with blotting of the oil already :( Not that I have flawless skin before, I think it got worsen. And this cannot be neglected!
"Say: If your fathers and your sons and your brethren and your mates and your kinsfolk and property which you have acquired,
and the slackness of trade which you fear
and dwellings which you like,
are dearer to you than Allah and His Apostle and striving in His way,
then wait till Allah brings about His command:
and Allah does not guide the transgressing people."
A verse that my sister shared to me after I accompanied her practicing her driving skills.
Before that, we talked to our mom about driving, then ma said "Mama takut kena kereta orang. Nanti susah."
Hm I don't what's the relation with the verse though, but my post here is general to public.
Rezeki is from Allah. Everybody knows that. But, how deep the muslims hold on to it? How confident you are with that statement?
From what I understand, ideally, if your car got hit, you must not worry. If your car got scratched, you must not worry. If your phone or expensive smartphone fell down to the ground, you must not worry. If your tablets or ipads fell down, you must not worry.
Because, you are confident those are all just worldly goods.
Because, you believe that Allah has prepared you a way more better ones than the broken ipad (due to falling), scratched car and anything such.
So, reflect back to yourself as well as me, how confident we are to Allah's rewards for us?
Surah As-Sajda, Verse 20:
And as for those who transgress,
their abode is the fire;
whenever they desire to go forth from it,
they shall be brought back into it,
and it will be said to them:
"Taste the chastisement of the fire which you called a lie."
Surah Ar-Room, Verse 40:
"Allah is He Who created you,
then gave you sustenance,
then He causes you to die,
then brings you to life.
Is there any of your associate-gods who does aught of it?
Glory be to Him,
and exalted be He above what they associate (with Him)."
Its so clear you just use me
To get information
When you didn't manage to get one
Just like *snap* that
Without say anything
Crazy lah you
So I uninstalled the twitter app from the phone.
Because I found its very distracting.
With all the endless drama that I don't want to get involved, but I indirectly did.
And its none of my business.
I don't want to know what people react to it.
So why bother to read em at my TL right?
Nak deactivate, ada orang tak bagi for his own reasons.
So, uninstall kejap okay kan?
Plus, I have exams to focus on.
So if someone called you a bitch, there are for two reasons.
1. They're joking around with you.
2. You totally deserve it.
If you've been called a bitch because the person who called you that thought you deserve it, then you should think why you deserve it.
Think deeply, why.
Not calling that person a bitch back.
"I called you bitch in front of your face. Because by that, I hope you can open a bit your mind. Yes, I was harsh. *emotionally-driven" Am sorry.
But you. You called me a bitch behind my back. And that's rude. And you're still pretending so nice and all in front of my face. Sorry, but fuck you!"