Saturday, February 25, 2012

Life nowadays.

Remember I said sometimes I love being busy? Well now I am sooo busy. Busy training futsal, busy studying for tests next week, busy with classes and busy with dancing. I thought it's good to be busy. So that I know that my life actually filled with some activities. If i'm not busy, I don't think i'll be studying like how I study now. Now, as in my hectic time table. I also think I might not been happy like I am now. Because when I kinda have a free time, I tend to over think about the very simple thing and lead me to a depressed life. Somehow, yesterday, I have a very, very bad flu. I reckoned it's because of my packed life and lacked of energy. Thus my immune system is quite low now.

And when I lacked of rest, i'll become easily annoyed with annoying people, with being-fecking-persistence-at-the-wrong-time people, with always-think-he/she-so-damn-good people, yeah those kinds. Sometimes, they're untolerably full with annoyance and made me saying things right in their face. PS: I hate Blackberry's camera sound, because it cannot off and be silence.

Being too busy also made me feels like I hope my house is very near to the campus. So that I know, my mom will do my sweaty laundry, or I can just throw my sweaty sports attire to the machine without puttingin some freaking coins (I don't have to bother to collect and keep the coins!), I also know in the kitchen will always have some foods even if it just some cream crackers. Which you know, your mom will buy them once it has finished. But in reality,

1. You just have to collect coins. And carry a bucket full of dirty clothes from level 5 to level 3 to go to the machine.

2. Or else, you have to hand wash all your clothes.

3. If it'll be a bright sunny day, then you're lucky.

4. If it'll rain, then your clothes take forever to dry.

5. You somehow have to hand wash your baju kurungs.

6. And shawls and tudungs.

7. But then you just realize that your detergent has finished!

8. You have to think, when will you buy the detergent? Do you have enough money?

9. Then you have BUY many foods, because you need energy to live. Plus, futsal consumes energy so much.

10. Your legs hurt and you oughta think, how you'll be able to buy the foods?

11. Because you will walk like a snail.

12. And you realize you ave two tests next week. Then you think, will you be able to finished all the 40++ lectures in a few days?

So honey, this weekend, I will just wanna spend my time in the room, resting and studying. You know, I can choose not to join all these sports and dances thang. But, I thought, my life would be like other nerds student who go to class in morning, go back to hostel in the evening, and have some rests, and studying or watching some K-dramas in the night. Go through that cycle EVERYDAY.

InshaAllah I can go through these life. Nak seribu daya, taknak seribu dalih. If other people can do these, why can't I?


Sunday, February 19, 2012

One of the random nights.

Just now, I followed a local female celebrity on Twitter. I saw she kinda replies ALL of her fans good night wishes. And before that, she tweeted something about her very first Chanel, which was during she's sixteen. Crazy, right? I mean, Chanel costs thousands and she got it at sixteen. Usually girls at that age would just buy the pirated version one. But not her. Like, whaaaattha??! I bet her family is super rich. So, here I am, that bitch that knows the beauty of sarcasm and I don't know, too outspoken? I tweeted her back lol. I said, "I was using F.O.S bag when I was sixteen. Oh, wait I was actually using recycled bag :O ". Haha! I bet that would give her a smack on the face. Or she read it and left it like that because she thought it was rude and thus didn't reply? Do you think it's rude? Or she probably didn't notice it, so she didn't reply me. Or she maybe didn't even give a shit about it and thought, "Aww pity her". Hmph -.-"

Wow, very lame post.


Sunday, February 12, 2012

Limited Holiday.

My semester break now officially has finished. Our faculty only gave us a week to 'enjoy' before start to struggle to become a dentist soon, inshaAllah. Of course a week wasn't enough. But at least there are days to spend time with family and friend.

My friends are all having their holiday about a month. They are so lucky, but they are not a future dentist. Well I guess, these are the hard times that I should face.

I haven't check out new Johor Premium Outlets. They said it was good. There are a lot of branded stuffs like Coach and Burberry. Besides, I also haven't check out the new Cotton On store at City Square. I also didn't hangout with Adam this holiday. I also didn't bake, like I used to do at previous holidays. Oh yes, I also didn't learn how Photoscape functions. Grr.

But I am now a bit expert in handling cat. Whoop! I know now how can a person talks to a cat like they talked to a baby.

I went a trip to Malacca with girlfriends. It was good. But not as good as I thought it would be. I expected so high I guess? Besides, people ordering while you're driving is kinda spoiling your happy mood eh? As if you never learn any driving rules. -.-"

I made kueh sago! The one with pink colour and served with white shredded coconut. Niceee. But it turned out lembik than it supposed to be.

You know, actually i'm in the bus. I have motion sickness, I hope I won't vomit.

Thanks for reading.


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Saturday, February 11, 2012

Dear coach.

As you know I joined futsal last year until now. I entered SAF 2010, Intervarsity 2011 and SAF 2011. But I played only at both SAF's. I gotta admit, I suck at sports. So coach won't pick me as the main player, obviously. But I don't mind, I guess? I once blogged about Intervarsity held at Kelantan. I also talked about this same coach. Because I got issue with him during that game.

Well yesterday he messaged me asking about when will our batch start our second semester. I answered and asked why. Then he said, he wanna plan when to start training as Intervarsity 2012 will be held on 3rd March. Then he told me who's in for the next game. Then I felt someone is left out. He said, a1, b1, a2, b2, c2, d2, a3 and b3 will join. Then I asked, how about c1? Then there started the confusion.

Since I am quite close to c1, I asked c1, does she really wanna play? Then she said yes, she really look forward for this game. And I told coach that she wanna join. And suddenly coach kinda scold me and asked me, "Who are you to speak to her?". And anger filled me because he suddenly start to like, piss me off. Then I said, "I just reconfirmed with her. What the hell", since she's my teammates. I just thought I have the right to know and clear the confusion. Then he said I was being nosy and pissed him off. I was mad back then, I cursed him.

This whole thing made me feel horrible, somehow a bit guilty. Because he's my senior, I shouldn't be rude to him. But as a person-person relationship, I honestly don't know who's to blame, you know?

As I was showered this afternoon, it made me thinking of why not I apologise? To make things back to where it suppose to be. I don't want it to be awkward. I'm going to face him for the next three years, for God's sake. Of course it will be super awkward if I still have this ridiculous crisis.

So I crushed my ego wall and texted him saying sorry. I am worried he won't forgive me. I kinda wait for him to reply my message. Yet he didn't. Its either he still don't wanna think about it, or he's already hated me to the core, or he's ego, or he don't wanna be friends with me anymore. Gosh, this is frustrating. I don't know what to do.


Monday, February 6, 2012

Current Addiction.

I signed up Twitter during my study week previously. I influenced by my study group mate actually. She said I can 'update status' as much as I want without people nag of how much I update it. Then, that night as I was browsing through the Market, I saw Twitter apps, then I downloaded it, installed in my phone then now I became addicted. I was so addicted to Twitter until I agreed to Maxis operator to change to postpaid plan. (It's the cheapest anyway)

So this Twitter account supposedly become my so-called private life, where I wanna tweet all my insecure, random, weird, emo and happy thoughts. I wanna follow only celebrities and new friends. Because I found out that I tend to be emotional when I saw some of my friends connected to each other just like that. *snapped fingers* Stupid, I know.

So I need to let this emo feelings out somewhere where they can't read it. But I made a wrong step by following this one guy. Where he tagged one of my friends and there there, kantoi already. But that's okay, they aren't as addicted as I am. They won't get the chance to read my tweets on their timeline, unless they put an effort to stalk me :O