Oh dear dentistry - REQUIREMENTS

No I won't extend.
No I WON'T.

But, towards the end of year 4, I haven't have enough case.

I only issued one pair of denture. 8 units to go.
And I have 1 year to kejar?
Am I serious?
Gila ke apa ni!
(CRY!)

With single canal and endo molar lagi.
Am I serious?

With crowns and bridges.
With only 2 points for site 2 posterior.
Site 2 anterior still zero.
Am I serious?
(CRY!)

With Removable appliance yang only 3 patients tu?
I need 2 more.
Fixed appliance inshaAllah can kejar.
But seriously nani!?

Death

One thing I just knew about death are I don't like changes and replacement made because of their absence.

They just won't be the same, of course. It totally needs time to adapt with their absence, then i'll accept replacement.

You know nothing, and you request bullshit.

Fyi, nak seribu daya tak nak seribu dalih.

home.

i feel like i've been ignored.
i sat there, laughed and talked to them.
but none of them responded.
as if i'm not there.
as if i'm invisible.

it's sick to think what have i done.
because i can't remember anything that was mean.
only the smallest thing from asking them
to throw out the rubbish,
to wash the frying pan.

it's sick to follow their pace.
like, they ignore me and i shall ignore them too.
actually i've tried.
but failed terribly.
failed as in i ended up being depressed.

depressed because after these 3 1/2 years,
i never ignore anyone (unless we're pissed each other off)
you and me were so fine.

Lawak bodoh macam intolerable when you're stress.

Changing diet.

Choose baked/grilled, rather than fried.
Choose steamed/soup, rather than savoury.
Choose tosai/chapati, rather than paratha.
Choose raw vege, rather than cooked ones.
Request less sugar, rather than the conventional one.
Lessen the amount of white rice.
Choose wholemeal bread, rather than white bread.
Lessen caffeine intake.
Choose whole grain cereal, rather than high-sugar level cereal.
Choose yoghurt drink, rather than normal fresh milk.
Or rather, drink a hell lot of plenty many many plain water.

I am trying to eat as healthy as I can. As less fats and oils as I can. Eat a lot of ulams as I can, a lot of high fibre as I can.

Come on, nani! You can do this!
Towards flawless skin!
HAHA!
Kan dah kantoi.
Because I feel recently my skin full with blotting of the oil already :( Not that I have flawless skin before, I think it got worsen. And this cannot be neglected!

Yaaarghh!

note to myself

what i realize,
in dentistry or being a dental student,
you can't be slow.
you can't work slow.
you can't think slow.
you can't walk slow.

you have to decide fast.
you have to answer fast.
you have to think fast.
you have to walk fast.

or else,
you are abnormal
and annoying

so basically,
you must always have knowledge.
be confident even if you're wrong.
or if you don't know,
admit that you didn't know.
be brave.

just,
act fast.
DO NOT hesitate, then give smile.
the lecturers got annoyed
so easily if you're doing that.

so, a little tips here.
if you think you are slow,
put efforts to improve.
look at others and learn.
try and learn to take risks.
take harsh comments positively,
then work it out to improve.
and think a little,
for how long i'll be 'this' slow?

because we deal with patients.
other human beings.
though we didn't deal with
brains, intestines, heart or lungs,
we deal with mouth and teeth.
first impression of people of you.

kan aku dah kata.
susah clinical partner dengan boyfriend orang.

bukan aku hadap sangat pun.
terpaksa.
last resort dah tu.

susah bila campur-adukkan professional life dengan social life.
sikit-sikit nak jealous.
kejadah nya.

nak complain a lil.

penat.
denture tak siap. tapi ada progression. alhamdulillah.

besok (sabtu) ada kelas ganti cuti undi haritu. kot.
besok (sabtu) ada test periodontics.
saya tak study satu haprak lagi.
besok (sabtu) ada 2 clinics.
tapi both patient partner saya. alhamdulillah.

lusa (ahad) ada kelas.
tak tau lah ganti atau kelas tambahan.
lusa (ahad) ada anaabu launching her new shop.
got invitation, nak pegi, tapi ada kelas.
lusa (ahad) supposedly the only day to rest.
tapi ada kelas.
so, no rest.
because the day after ahad, is isnin.
which is start a new week.
so, no rest.

projek disko baldi dreams.
earlybird tickets until 7th June.
saya busy hari ni (7th June).
walaupun jumaat.
dari 8am-9pm.
lecture-clinic-labwork-mandarin class-usrah.
bila balik, call pj live arts.
rupa-rupanya talian tu buka dari 12pm-7pm.
i was occupied.
so daripada boleh dapat tiket harga rm50/pair,
kena beli yang biasa punya. which is rm70/pair.
aku dah kopak gila babi.
tapi sebab projek disko baldi tu best,
i think i deserve a good laugh at the end of my last 3rd year week,
before i officially start my study week for professional exam 3.
iedil putra tu kira macam, catalyst.
yang buat aku bersemangat nak pergi.
haha.
(transport nak ke jaya one tu tak pikir lagi.
pfft)

ipoh alternative.
masa aku dapat tau jek pasal event ni.
on 8th June.
terus aku consider boleh pergi balik hari.
dari shah alam.
despite the event,
i want to eat 2 bowls of lien chee keng yang sedap gila tu.
yang ada sea coconut dan 2 biji of telur puyuh tu.
plus ice dia blended.
instead of cubes.
despite the event,
aku nak pergi funny mountain yang famous dgn soya tu.

nampak tak?
yang aku tak sedar diri takde duit.
tapi nak have fun?

so, conclusion nya.
complain lah kau macam mana sekalipun,
kun faya kun.
usaha, pikir dan doa lah apa yang terbaik utk diri sendiri.