Friday, March 4, 2011

I'm having a hard time.

I just can't stop think negatively.
Blend in, an unstable emotions with difficult lectures.

Yes, she did it again.
Again, making me felt like I'm the bad guy.
No, I don't need to apologize.
Because I had done nothing wrong.

Well, I miss my long lost friend.
The real long lost friend, and the 'real' long lost friend.
I wish I can talk to you.
Express everything, and listen to your opinion,
and waiting for the peak (a lot of laughters),
which will making me feel better.
I don't know why, I am so believed in you.

I realized the stupid mentality of mine.
Before entering this course.
I thought that Dental Surgery will only be taught about teeth.
Simply teeth and mouth.
Instead, the whole body.
Well, we're going to be doctors, not teeth-handyman.
Stupid me.

People are being selfish and more selfish, nowadays, recently and lately.
They don't care for you as much as you care for them.
It's disappointing, didn't they?
You were there while they're sick, but did they do the same thing to you?
People forget the good deeds you did to them.
People only emphasized the bad things you did to them.

I can't control my feelings anymore.
The more I controlled, the more my lacrimal gland working.
It's the nature of me.
I am so emotional.
No, this isn't PMS.
No, I can't be heartless.
I don't know how.

I became more and more anti-social.
Paranoid of something.
God, this wasn't the symptoms for some mental disorder, right?

Damn it!
Behavioral Science class made me think of schizophrenia, mental disorder, abnormal behavior, abnormal disorder and shits.
Seriously, it's scary.
Literally nuts, insane, crazy, going mad, psychotic, lunatic, maniac, and all.

P/S: I watched I Am Number Four yesterday. Random plan, again. Dianna Agron was playing Sarah. She's a part-time photographer. The pictures taken are so cool and nice. She's cute and sweet as usual. Overall, the movie are okay.

Entertain me, please?

1 comment:

  1. you're not gonna be schizophrenic, don't worry. cause being schizophrenic is more than just being sad. it's losing grip on reality. mesti kelas behavioral scince best! aku nak join! and aku tengok i am number four gak tadi. number six cool habis.


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