Saturday, February 11, 2012

Dear coach.

As you know I joined futsal last year until now. I entered SAF 2010, Intervarsity 2011 and SAF 2011. But I played only at both SAF's. I gotta admit, I suck at sports. So coach won't pick me as the main player, obviously. But I don't mind, I guess? I once blogged about Intervarsity held at Kelantan. I also talked about this same coach. Because I got issue with him during that game.

Well yesterday he messaged me asking about when will our batch start our second semester. I answered and asked why. Then he said, he wanna plan when to start training as Intervarsity 2012 will be held on 3rd March. Then he told me who's in for the next game. Then I felt someone is left out. He said, a1, b1, a2, b2, c2, d2, a3 and b3 will join. Then I asked, how about c1? Then there started the confusion.

Since I am quite close to c1, I asked c1, does she really wanna play? Then she said yes, she really look forward for this game. And I told coach that she wanna join. And suddenly coach kinda scold me and asked me, "Who are you to speak to her?". And anger filled me because he suddenly start to like, piss me off. Then I said, "I just reconfirmed with her. What the hell", since she's my teammates. I just thought I have the right to know and clear the confusion. Then he said I was being nosy and pissed him off. I was mad back then, I cursed him.

This whole thing made me feel horrible, somehow a bit guilty. Because he's my senior, I shouldn't be rude to him. But as a person-person relationship, I honestly don't know who's to blame, you know?

As I was showered this afternoon, it made me thinking of why not I apologise? To make things back to where it suppose to be. I don't want it to be awkward. I'm going to face him for the next three years, for God's sake. Of course it will be super awkward if I still have this ridiculous crisis.

So I crushed my ego wall and texted him saying sorry. I am worried he won't forgive me. I kinda wait for him to reply my message. Yet he didn't. Its either he still don't wanna think about it, or he's already hated me to the core, or he's ego, or he don't wanna be friends with me anymore. Gosh, this is frustrating. I don't know what to do.


1 comment:

  1. Because Nani is my hero! ^^
    Thanks for asking Nani, but I felt guilty because he said u pissed him off. Tiba-tiba Nani pulak yang kena.

    Nani is my hero! ^^


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