Danggg it.

Today, I'm in my second week in my study week. On the first week, I spent the whole week with my study groupmate. We started at early in the morning and finished it at midnight. And it occured for the one whole week. Yes, you can imagine how frequently we met. So, after we decided to have our own time of studying, me having a shock. What shock? Bed shock, sleep shock, online shock, never-stay-up shock. Yes, that's the one. It's like, "Damn it", right? I supposed to study and yet, I am doing waste-time-thing, including now. Oh, no! :O And guess what? In the middle of the study week, I have Ethnic Relation final exam. I have to study, what does it call, HISTORY, which is, not my thing. But, I'm 'sure', E.R is super interesting, wasn't it, peeps?

So, whatever it is, I'm going to handle that, don't worry peeps. You just have to pray for me, so that I WON'T fail and thus WON'T repeat the exams. Amin :) There, I felt better. Har! Har! Thank you :)

PS: I'll go bob once again. Sorry, hair.
XOXO

Random again.

Sorry, peeps. Apparently, this week is a studying and exam-preparation season now. Everybody's Facebook status and blog posts are all about stress-up studying, lazyness strikes and ask for their friends good luck wish. Yeah, me too, busy doing this and that. This and that means, studying and study group. Pffft. Oh, you know what? I restrained myself from online-ing for more than half and hour time per day. I even promised to myself that I cannot update my blog, until the exam had finished. But, look what I am doing now. I'm updating my blog. I don't know, I am tired being so discipline. Haha.

Well, well. I went back home last weekend. It felt great. Although for only 3 days. I watched TV, I ate a lot, a lot. I talked with my siblings and mom. Yes, great. And, the greatest part was, the moment when I saw my parents smiled as I doing something blahh. I felt charmed :)

As I told you, I watched TV at home, right. One of the show that I watched was, "Sembang Bersama Dato' Mashitah", at Astro Oasis. If you didn't know, who is Dato' Mashitah, well, she is, uh, Ustazah. For further information about her, do Google yourself. So, the main topic that they're discussing was, "Change God's Creation". There were many things that they brought up to discuss it together. Such as, hair extension, tooth spacing, shaved eyebrow, botox and susuk and many more. What I want to tell you about is, she said, it was claimed for women to shave their eyebrow for the 'tidy/clean-it-up' intention. So, I was confused. After all this while, I thought that whatever thing that changed God's creation, was a sin.  Well, I believed in her, because she's an Ustazah. But, naahh, about this one, I need to survey all the ustazah and ustaz opinion. So, do you have anything to share?

Good Luck, peeps.
XOXO

Paranoid.

Yes, I am paranoid. Paranoid of what? I am paranoid of failure. I know the fact that everyone will experience their own ups and downs. I can accept mine too. I admit that I failed a lot recently (last semester), and I got insulted once, a real bad one, due to my seriously bad result on last final exam. It was so unexpected and I was freaking embarrassed. This is the reason why am I, so damn paranoid of failing again.

This morning, I had a test on abnormal subjects in Cardiovascular System. Abnormal subjects are Pathology (studies of disease), Microbiology (studies of microorganisms) and Pharmacology (studies of drugs). As I told you earlier, I got a study-group gang, right? Well, every night, we’re having a group discussion on the previous lectures. It’s great, I can understand it well. But, that was just the matter of understanding not memorizing (well, to me). Somehow, there is still something that you have to memorize instead of understanding it. And, for me, it’s quite hard. Why? Because, I am very slow in studying and understanding. Seriously, it’s a really slow one. But, I try so hard to success like everyone else. So, in order to achieve success-ness, I need time, I need non-sleepy mind and I need energy.

And, what happen to me last night, while everyone was busy catching up things that they didn’t understand, memorizing the names of the drugs, studying in a group, drinking cups of coffee to prevent them from sleeping and doing stuffs which help them to prepare before the test tomorrow, I was in the bed, with pathology notes in my hands, sleeping, sleeping and sleeping. Heck, I know I shouldn’t sleep, yet I did try to fight my eyes off and prevent me from sleeping. But, it didn’t go well.

As I woke up this morning, I was super shocked when I saw the morning shines so bright (7.14 am). The test started on 9.00 am. Of course, 7.14 am are bright! And, obviously, I missed the dawn prayer L  Bad me. So, what God gave me in return? I cannot answer today’s test confidently as I did in the previous test. Aku tak boleh jawab! Ada paham? So, serve me right lah kan? I was so tensed up during answering the questions, I felt like I want to scream my lungs out. I kept on doa and hoping that God gave me some evidence or guidance. At last, I gave up on answering Pharmacology questions, because I didn’t memorize one of the drugs at all. Again, serve me right, for sleeping all night. Dammit!

So, the conclusion is, after so long, I never felt this paranoia, until today’s test, and I am afraid if I will fail again, like my other test during last semester. But, I am praying and hoping, I won’t be fail again. Amin!



PS: after so long I didn’t update my blog, it took me almost 3 hours to compose this post.

XOXO

Worry-ness.

World has come to an end, hasn't it?
I'm afraid that I don't have the chance to repent and do lots and lots of amalan.
I'm afraid that I don't have a chance to graduate and become a dental surgeon.
Im afraid that I don't have a chance to further studies.
I'm afraid that I don't have the chance to repay my parent's good deeds.
I'm afraid that I don't have the chance to spend the rest of my life with 'the one'.
But, don't you realize that world has become scarier and scarier, day by day?


RANDOM THOUGHTS OF MINE

People who rich with their wealthiness, doesn't mean that they're literally happy,
and for the people who are poor with pauperism, not necessarily meant to be literally suffer.

Rich people also might be suffered with something-something although they're rich.
Something-something refers to chronic diseases, unhappy family.
Poor people also might be not suffered from something-something although they don't have any 'treasures'.
Something-something refers to happy family always be with each other during hard times.

PS: Ignore this post if you don't understand. And don't even bother to understand if you're not.
XOXO

Stop seeking, but be one.

I'm sure you don't have any idea on tonight's title. I had been told by a sister, that the quote (today's post title) is from holy Al-Quran, Surah An-Nisa. She answered my friend's question with this quote. The question was, "Kak, apa tips dapat jodoh?". Why did she asked this kind of question? Because this kakak is a newly-wed.
So, what is this quote actually meant? Ladies out there, I'm sure you want 'the-one' who are nice, religious, kind-hearted, helping each other, responsible and many more. Right? So, she said, to obtain that kind of 'the-one', we ourself have to change and be like one.
Oh my, do you understand? Okay, easier way to explain, if you want him/her to be kind and nice, you must be kind-hearted and nice first, then, if Allah wills it, you'll get one like that. Because, "A good woman will always be with a good man".

Why did I post something like this?
I was thinking, I wasn't a good enough, thus I want a future-husband who can leads me to the truth, to the righteousness. Well, I don't care about your future-husband, but I do care mine. And what did I try to change is, ugh, should I tell you? No, right? It's like super personal. But, I just want to, uh, remind you (especially Muslim girls), keep your sight from seeing something that is not appropriate. In other words, always keeping your gaze down. Save your sweet-eye-candy-ing cute boys for eternity life (akhirat).

P/S: Quit caring about me, or I'll love you.
XOXO