Perhaps, you can walk out of the door of my heart if you don't like it.

Issue.

"If you like a boy, make sure he sees you as a girl - not one of the guys"

A quote I saw from Instagram. 

Deep. Very deep indeed. 

Well I haven't like any guys. Yet. But I found it comfortable when i'm around my guyfriends and they treat me like one of the guys.

No punching 

or hugging 

or touching.

Still have that sensitivity. But the way we treat each other lah. 

Not one guy.

Not two guys.

But most of the guys.

Weird, I found.

Certainly not all guys treat women the same like they treat me.

I think, i'm the one who made them treat me this way.

Lol, what did I do?

But everything seems,

Heartless and,

Careless.

No mushy-mushy feelings involved.

I found it,

easy.

you are so lucky
that i am nice

i was so fool
for thinking that you actually cared

while you actually don't
i knew it
all along

indeed
selfish you are
or, are you not?

indeed
sweet-talker you are
or, are you not?

Deactivation.

I deactivated my Twitter account. Because I just can't stand the distractions despite that I am so lazy and Twitter is so addictive. Thus it's not good for my exam preparations.

Somehow, Twitter is soooo addictive and I am soo curious what is happening with the drama, I logged-in just now and reactivate my Twitter. Lol, damn you Twitter creator (who ever your name is).

And it turned out to be like this,

I.
Have.
To.
Refollow.
Everyone.
Now?

Annoyed. And deactivate again.
hahahahaha.
XOXO

So I uninstalled the twitter app from the phone.

Because I found its very distracting.

With all the endless drama that I don't want to get involved, but I indirectly did.

And its none of my business.
I don't want to know what people react to it.
So why bother to read em at my TL right?

Nak deactivate, ada orang tak bagi for his own reasons.

So, uninstall kejap okay kan?

Plus, I have exams to focus on.

To deactivate twitter or not.

He said, no I can't.

So, am thinking to uninstall the twitter app in the phone.

I rarely go to bookstores, but when I do, i'll usually go to the english novels section. And a few days back, we went to MPH to kill some time before break fast. Kinda unbelievable, I don't know why, these legs go to the religious section. Lots of interesting books. And one of it was Mustafa Kamal Ataturk's biography and history of how he 'damaged' Islam's history. I thought, 'Hey this'd be interesting to read', because I want to know the details since I knew about him. So I took it and hold it (decided to buy), and continue looking at other books.
Then I saw 'Rahsia-rahsia Besar Di Sebalik Sirah Rasulullah'. I heard a lot of the celebrities who've hijrah to the right path when they read about Rasulullah. I have to admit, there are a lot of thing that I do not know about the Messenger of Allah. Which is not good.
I remembered during the last few usrahs, the naqibah asked us, "What are the Rasulullah's mukjizat?". And the ONLY thing that comes to my head was, "Water coming out from his hands", while there're a lot of other mukijzats. Al-Quran is the biggest mukjizat ever, and it didn't come out from my mind at all. How bad was that? And my other usrah-mates were fighting to answer that question. One after another. I was just, sit there and clueless. FFFFF (*cursing myself)
Then I thought, I never bought any islamic book before, and the first islamic book that i'll buy must have some really big impact to me. Then I decided to buy this one instead of buying 'The Enemy of Islam''s biography and history. LOL, what was I thinking.

Hypocrisy and hatred lingering around me.
Not coming out from me.
From other parties, towards me.

And its growing.

Thus I choose to avoid.
Away and alone.

PMS or reality?
I don't know.

So if someone called you a bitch, there are for two reasons.
1. They're joking around with you.
2. You totally deserve it.

If you've been called a bitch because the person who called you that thought you deserve it, then you should think why you deserve it.
Think deeply, why.
And improve.

Not calling that person a bitch back.

"I called you bitch in front of your face. Because by that, I hope you can open a bit your mind. Yes, I was harsh. *emotionally-driven" Am sorry.
But you. You called me a bitch behind my back. And that's rude. And you're still pretending so nice and all in front of my face. Sorry, but fuck you!"