All in a day.

Heads up: Long post ahead.

On the tenth of March, my faculty held an event called "2nd Dental Symposium". The event where all the final year students get to present their research. It is an annual event. So what is it related to me? Again my friends and I had to do a performance. Last year, I did Zapin. This year, we did Tarian Ngajat. It was a very unique dance. Sarawak tradisional dance. It's new to me, so I wasn't that good. But, ahem, we received a lot of compliments! :D Well, I guessed for dental students to 'divide' time for resting, going to class and practice dancing were a bit amazement to them? I don't know.

So what's my actual point blog about this? Haha. None. Thanks for reading!

Oh wait, now I am free with futsal and dancing, thus I got no other excuse to not study. My dad called yesterday. He asked me to save the scholar money that i'll be received. Because last semester, I used it so blindly with no plans and so happy spending all the money as if my dad is billionaire. And it gives me problem for my next semester. I got no savings, I didn't work, my dad haven't received his salary for that month (idk his boss suddenly gave the salary a bit late last month). So yeah, he's mad. I borrowed my sis's money, Huda's money, I ate bread at night and sometimes for lunch too.

He said this, (translated) "You have to remember that our family isn't like your friends' family. They are all loaded people. Don't follow them to branded stores and branded restaurants. Know our limitations. We're not rich people. I'm not like your friends' father. They worked in the office and received tonnes of money. Those people had their own properties to give to their kids. While me, I have to break my legs to give our family money. I can't walked properly now. So remember okay? You can buy things that you want, eat what you want but just know how to save. Okay, abah sayang Nani" :"| I don't know why am I so careless of thinking about what my dad had to go through. I am so lazy to study, had fun so much, hanging out with friends like there'll be no next time. I am such a bad daughter :(

Anywayyyyyy, my last post was about me going to Kuantan right? So there's a new friend of mine, from other uni said to my friend which studying at the same uni (he's my friend's friend. That's how we got to be friends.) He said that he saw me like a bunch of a typical UITM-ians. Bamm!! A smack on my face! He didn't say 'Hi' to me though. Probably he was shy because i'm with my UITM friends. I really don't know how to respind to this.

For your information, I really hate the typical UITM-ians! The one who have a very shallow minded. And very contained with the Bumiputera status that they had and no effort was put because they will receive any 'hak Bumiputera' in anyway. Which means, idk, maybe they can graduate easily without working so hard or something? Dammit, man. I was so angry back then. Idk how he defines The Typical UITM-ians though. But what I interpreted was like what I had in mind. Pfft, he didn't knew me well anyway.

Huda said I am different when I am with her, when I am with Adam, when I am with JB girlfriends, when I am with UITM friends, when I am with my family. Peeps, I am not faking about okay. I am still me, have the same Nani core, but adapted in a few different situations. I don't want to be awkward all the time. It's tiring.

So, I don't know what to conlude though. People will always judge. They can't run away from judging. First impression isn't always right. But, sometimes it isn't wrong too.

PS: I am a very emo girl. With that, I thank you.

XOXO

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Dental Sports Carnival

It was in Kuantan, Pahang. And last year was in Kelantan. We stayed in UiTM Padang Lalang. The carnival was held in International Islamic University Malaysia, Kuantan. (IIUM) Once we reached IIUM, we were amazed with their architectural design of the faculty (they called it Kulliyah) building. Even their sports complex too! Each one of them had a sense of Islamic design. Like the mosque or Musolla. There were like tonnes of mosque in the campus. And their Dentistry faculty consist of five HUGE buildings. It was so big. And my friend said the lecture halls are like in the hotels. I can believe it though, it must be very comfortable and convenient.

Okay move on to the sports. There were basketball, netball, futsal, volleyball, badminton and table tennis. As you know, I represented my uni for futsal female. And we won Silver. Yaay! Although, we actually target for Gold, sheesh but that's okay. Silver also good what. Hard works (le training) paid off! My uni only won Bronze for basketball, netball, double badminton (M) and 4x100m. While Silver, futsal (F) and volleyball (F). UM, IIUM and USM won a lot.

For futsal, again, I was a substituter for the champs. You know, like when the champs already tired, you have to get in and play. Although during that time I planned to score at least one goal, hoping for miracles, like in the movies. Where you're the one who change everything at the very last minute and suddenly became famous. LOL! But well, I am not good enough to suddenly do miracle things and score a goal and won Gold instead. But I did manage to maintain the scores that our team made during the phase to go the finals and defend the ball from entering our goal. Well at least i'm capable of doing that. Syukran.

I found that volleyball is actually a very fun game. I should try it sometimes.

XOXO

Life nowadays.

Remember I said sometimes I love being busy? Well now I am sooo busy. Busy training futsal, busy studying for tests next week, busy with classes and busy with dancing. I thought it's good to be busy. So that I know that my life actually filled with some activities. If i'm not busy, I don't think i'll be studying like how I study now. Now, as in my hectic time table. I also think I might not been happy like I am now. Because when I kinda have a free time, I tend to over think about the very simple thing and lead me to a depressed life. Somehow, yesterday, I have a very, very bad flu. I reckoned it's because of my packed life and lacked of energy. Thus my immune system is quite low now.

And when I lacked of rest, i'll become easily annoyed with annoying people, with being-fecking-persistence-at-the-wrong-time people, with always-think-he/she-so-damn-good people, yeah those kinds. Sometimes, they're untolerably full with annoyance and made me saying things right in their face. PS: I hate Blackberry's camera sound, because it cannot off and be silence.

Being too busy also made me feels like I hope my house is very near to the campus. So that I know, my mom will do my sweaty laundry, or I can just throw my sweaty sports attire to the machine without puttingin some freaking coins (I don't have to bother to collect and keep the coins!), I also know in the kitchen will always have some foods even if it just some cream crackers. Which you know, your mom will buy them once it has finished. But in reality,

1. You just have to collect coins. And carry a bucket full of dirty clothes from level 5 to level 3 to go to the machine.

2. Or else, you have to hand wash all your clothes.

3. If it'll be a bright sunny day, then you're lucky.

4. If it'll rain, then your clothes take forever to dry.

5. You somehow have to hand wash your baju kurungs.

6. And shawls and tudungs.

7. But then you just realize that your detergent has finished!

8. You have to think, when will you buy the detergent? Do you have enough money?

9. Then you have BUY many foods, because you need energy to live. Plus, futsal consumes energy so much.

10. Your legs hurt and you oughta think, how you'll be able to buy the foods?

11. Because you will walk like a snail.

12. And you realize you ave two tests next week. Then you think, will you be able to finished all the 40++ lectures in a few days?

So honey, this weekend, I will just wanna spend my time in the room, resting and studying. You know, I can choose not to join all these sports and dances thang. But, I thought, my life would be like other nerds student who go to class in morning, go back to hostel in the evening, and have some rests, and studying or watching some K-dramas in the night. Go through that cycle EVERYDAY.

InshaAllah I can go through these life. Nak seribu daya, taknak seribu dalih. If other people can do these, why can't I?

XOXO

One of the random nights.

Just now, I followed a local female celebrity on Twitter. I saw she kinda replies ALL of her fans good night wishes. And before that, she tweeted something about her very first Chanel, which was during she's sixteen. Crazy, right? I mean, Chanel costs thousands and she got it at sixteen. Usually girls at that age would just buy the pirated version one. But not her. Like, whaaaattha??! I bet her family is super rich. So, here I am, that bitch that knows the beauty of sarcasm and I don't know, too outspoken? I tweeted her back lol. I said, "I was using F.O.S bag when I was sixteen. Oh, wait I was actually using recycled bag :O ". Haha! I bet that would give her a smack on the face. Or she read it and left it like that because she thought it was rude and thus didn't reply? Do you think it's rude? Or she probably didn't notice it, so she didn't reply me. Or she maybe didn't even give a shit about it and thought, "Aww pity her". Hmph -.-"

Wow, very lame post.

XOXO

Limited Holiday.

My semester break now officially has finished. Our faculty only gave us a week to 'enjoy' before start to struggle to become a dentist soon, inshaAllah. Of course a week wasn't enough. But at least there are days to spend time with family and friend.

My friends are all having their holiday about a month. They are so lucky, but they are not a future dentist. Well I guess, these are the hard times that I should face.

I haven't check out new Johor Premium Outlets. They said it was good. There are a lot of branded stuffs like Coach and Burberry. Besides, I also haven't check out the new Cotton On store at City Square. I also didn't hangout with Adam this holiday. I also didn't bake, like I used to do at previous holidays. Oh yes, I also didn't learn how Photoscape functions. Grr.

But I am now a bit expert in handling cat. Whoop! I know now how can a person talks to a cat like they talked to a baby.

I went a trip to Malacca with girlfriends. It was good. But not as good as I thought it would be. I expected so high I guess? Besides, people ordering while you're driving is kinda spoiling your happy mood eh? As if you never learn any driving rules. -.-"

I made kueh sago! The one with pink colour and served with white shredded coconut. Niceee. But it turned out lembik than it supposed to be.

You know, actually i'm in the bus. I have motion sickness, I hope I won't vomit.

Thanks for reading.

XOXO

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Dear coach.

As you know I joined futsal last year until now. I entered SAF 2010, Intervarsity 2011 and SAF 2011. But I played only at both SAF's. I gotta admit, I suck at sports. So coach won't pick me as the main player, obviously. But I don't mind, I guess? I once blogged about Intervarsity held at Kelantan. I also talked about this same coach. Because I got issue with him during that game.

Well yesterday he messaged me asking about when will our batch start our second semester. I answered and asked why. Then he said, he wanna plan when to start training as Intervarsity 2012 will be held on 3rd March. Then he told me who's in for the next game. Then I felt someone is left out. He said, a1, b1, a2, b2, c2, d2, a3 and b3 will join. Then I asked, how about c1? Then there started the confusion.

Since I am quite close to c1, I asked c1, does she really wanna play? Then she said yes, she really look forward for this game. And I told coach that she wanna join. And suddenly coach kinda scold me and asked me, "Who are you to speak to her?". And anger filled me because he suddenly start to like, piss me off. Then I said, "I just reconfirmed with her. What the hell", since she's my teammates. I just thought I have the right to know and clear the confusion. Then he said I was being nosy and pissed him off. I was mad back then, I cursed him.

This whole thing made me feel horrible, somehow a bit guilty. Because he's my senior, I shouldn't be rude to him. But as a person-person relationship, I honestly don't know who's to blame, you know?

As I was showered this afternoon, it made me thinking of why not I apologise? To make things back to where it suppose to be. I don't want it to be awkward. I'm going to face him for the next three years, for God's sake. Of course it will be super awkward if I still have this ridiculous crisis.

So I crushed my ego wall and texted him saying sorry. I am worried he won't forgive me. I kinda wait for him to reply my message. Yet he didn't. Its either he still don't wanna think about it, or he's already hated me to the core, or he's ego, or he don't wanna be friends with me anymore. Gosh, this is frustrating. I don't know what to do.

XOXO

Current Addiction.

I signed up Twitter during my study week previously. I influenced by my study group mate actually. She said I can 'update status' as much as I want without people nag of how much I update it. Then, that night as I was browsing through the Market, I saw Twitter apps, then I downloaded it, installed in my phone then now I became addicted. I was so addicted to Twitter until I agreed to Maxis operator to change to postpaid plan. (It's the cheapest anyway)

So this Twitter account supposedly become my so-called private life, where I wanna tweet all my insecure, random, weird, emo and happy thoughts. I wanna follow only celebrities and new friends. Because I found out that I tend to be emotional when I saw some of my friends connected to each other just like that. *snapped fingers* Stupid, I know.

So I need to let this emo feelings out somewhere where they can't read it. But I made a wrong step by following this one guy. Where he tagged one of my friends and there there, kantoi already. But that's okay, they aren't as addicted as I am. They won't get the chance to read my tweets on their timeline, unless they put an effort to stalk me :O

XOXO